Freshmen orientation is drawing closer. There are these things that hide themselves in the back of my mind.. saying 'don't do this'.. and they're so well hidden, I can't get to them. And I've realized for the first time, maybe this isn't what I want. It's like, my mind is telling me to go to college but my heart is telling me to go for something else. I'm so torn between the two..and my mind has never let me down before. But it's just so clouded with all of these decisions.. what if I'm wrong? Or maybe my mind has always let me down, and that is why I find myself in this position. I've never once done what I want. And I can't remember for the life of me, a time where I did something because it made me happy. But you know the worst part? Nobody has noticed.